Don’t Love a Friend who Hurts you. Don’t Hurt a Friend who Loves you.
Day by day, things aren’t the same anymore. Moving on is simple, but what you leave behind that makes it difficult. I have no idea if they’re real or do they care. What should I do, what can I do? A joyful moment is made painful. A million of tears rolling down and I tot we’re friends. Closer like as if we’re family. But a friends that doesn’t care, that leave you behind, that hurts one another, that isn't there to lean on… is no longer called as “friends”. When I look around and see the faces of friends, I can only think I really am alone… because they are truly no friends at all.
Friendship grows the way relationship grew. A friend could heal or kill our hearts. The only reason why they can do that, it's because you care, cherish and they’re almost part of your life too. That’s why when friends leave us behind; we would be so mad and upset.
Sometimes even though we having a good time, I can't help myself not to stop and think about the good old days. Looking at these pictures is just like replaying a movie in my mind. It takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it. I know it doesn't make sense to let go of something I wanted for so long, but it also doesn't make sense to hold on when there’s nothing there anymore. We can't always have what we want, we don't always know what we need, and we never really see what we have. Friendship means understanding, not agreement. It means forgiveness, not forgetting. It means the memories last, even if contact is lost.
I guess the reason why I always end up hurting this way is because I cherish this friendship. I would rather cry over the truth than smile over a lie. Somehow, letting it go doesn't mean giving up. It just means accepting that some things just weren’t meant to be. Friends don’t come and go, I let them walk away. Sorry I forgot to tell you that as my friend you must be true. Perhaps, I should really just move on and build my trust on someone that what “friends” should be.
This situation is driving me crazy; my heart is damaged. I can’t help myself not to break down and cry. I had enough wetting my pillow every night with all these thinking. Breathe in and out* I’m all done.
One million memories, Ten thousand inside jokes, One hundred shared secrets one reason, Best friends =)
Highschool’s life is like; finally has to come to the end. I can still remember the moment I step into Seafield with the-so-called-innocent-looks* =b Well, I’m sure I love high school the most compare back to my tadika & primary. And obviously, I had awesome teachers, classmates and friends ! =D
I still remember how I meet / know all of them one by one. However, my history in this highschool; at 1st was not really that good till I was Form3. You know, is like; I was having a big terrible nightmare since Form1 – Form2, huh ? HAHA but ohh well, everything seems to be so perfect and fine ever since I was Form3 until now. I was so touched when they came after me and said how sorry they were. Awwww*I can never forget =’)
And let’s see what msg I’ve here, for them =)
YongAiLin; ♥
Tskk ! How laaaa we can be this close eh !? Since Form3, right ? After you came and said sorry ? RIGHTTT ? LOL ! I totally have no idea. But ohhh well, you know how much I love you, right ? XD
Okayy la, actually I really really like the feeling when we both, sort of can read each other mind & dare to talk about it face to face. Is so surprising like as if we know what each other thinking =) And I gotta admit, I know that nowadays we have problem & we even hardly get to spend our time back like how it used to be. I hope this don’t hurt any of us, cause you know I’m still me. The one you used to know since Form3 =)... I’m sure we will be alright and hang out more right after spm, kayy ? Jgn ambil hati, cause I STILL LOVE YOU + still the 1st person in my list. Forever will be. & Don’t forget, my popcorn & movie ! =b You know you're damn SCARY !? Always ugut people ! But I love it when you hit Parvin just for me XD
EstherLimPeiYing; ♥
You and I know we used to be so close only since Form1 & don’t really know what happen, we ended our friendship at tht year. Only get to become just Hi / Bye friend ? But, wow ! Didn’t realize what goes around comes around, we’re back as close friend again =) Didn’t really except tht would happen right ? HAHA anyway, update me more about you and ahem* cause I’m still sesat behind here =b
VanessaKwanWanLing; ♥
So this is your name right !? Don’t ask me change if it’s wrong =b Actually, I don’t really know how I know you, but I remember I used to think you’re quite LanC. And now it prove tht what I judge is wrong =b Really laaa, you sendiri also know you like got those “lanc” looks, right ? =b Smile more la VANESSA ! you can easily scare people 1, you know ? HAHAA ! And remember Form3 we both same class with others ? You always bring food to school and cat fight with YongAiLin. Seriously funny and childish la. Not to forget the “dare” game we play. Damn moliu ! xD & I remember you got nickname tht I used to call you ! Dumb dumb girl ! whyth I name you tht ah ? LOL
HongYeeWern; ♥
11 years of friendship, huh ? We know each other since we age 7, right ? And with a blink of an eye, we both already 17 year old xD SO FAST AND OLD D ! And to let you know, I never put the past inside my heart at all. Maybe last time, got. But not now anymore. So don’t worry. I still love you, hunnybunny ! xD
LeeSiewMan; ♥
I only got 1 picture of you inside my comp cause I don’t know where the others pic went d xD Your niece damn cuteeeeeee la !! &&&&& I don’t know what else I can say about you but to let you know, you’re such a good friend & I love you =) ohhh ! And thanks for the birthday cake last year.
ChongXheeKee; ♥
Sakaii !! You’re the 1st person I know in this gang & because of you I know JennLi and AiLin =) So where’s the pencil ah ? XD Thanks for the birthday cake last year. I still remember and I love you ! =D
Parvinsantini; ♥
Walaooo ! I damn afraid of you laaa ! Since Tadika we both same school, primary & even highschool too ! I hope college we both won’t same, right ? XD And also, I know our history isn’t that good. But at least now everything has changed =D and to let you know, I never put the past inside my heart at all. Maybe last time, got. But not now anymore. So don’t worry. I love you, shorty ! =b
SooXingxing; ♥
I know we both isn’t that close anymore but I still remember how we know each other ! Really very funny laaa & also thanks to Parvin xD Anyway, I'll still be here if you need someone to listen your problem & I still love you, xinGku ! =)
LauraToh; ♥
Ohh nooo ! I really have no idea how I know you. Maybe since Form3 too ? LOL But I know, you can melts my heart with your piano song laaa ! I hate you laa ! but still love you & your piano's song ! =b
LeongSooLi; ♥
Still the same old mic girl with hand man ! You must try control abit =b AHAHA kidding. And love you ! =)
WongJennLi; ♥
I’m so sorry that I left you out in this post. LOL ! And you know what ? I don’t even have a proper picture with you ! How sad is that !? Don’t care d, we MUST ss more when we meet up next time, kayyy ? :D Although you’re not in Seafield anymore and we even hardly meet up together with others babe, but I’m sure we miss you alot; I miss you ;)… I remember when we’re in 2J class, got 1 time I heard you shout at me and called me a bitch eh ? I was like wtfff really heartbroken that time ;( but it was alright since we Form3 that time you came and said sorry =’) HAHAHAA ! I cannot stop laughing tht I ter-throw your SC book on the sort-called-a-roof la. You remember that !? All of us were like laughing till we cannot stand and thanks to the hero; Hrishii for helping us xD… And I still have your valentine’s card. You really damn outdated in tht card la. I should update you about me more often d ! HAHAHA Iloveyou babe ! =)
And the moment we had;
Honestly, isn’t that easy to have awesome friends like them that I’ve already been through ups and downs together. With all those tears, joy & laughter; we still have together as one. But after highschool, I know we're moving on & we're on a different track d. But don’t forget, our moment we had together & we’re still BFF ! =’)
As we go on We remember All the times we Had together And as our lives change Come Whatever We will still be Friends Forever
