Sometimes we have to let go for what we can't change.

Don’t Love a Friend who Hurts you.
Don’t Hurt a Friend who Loves you.

Day by day, things aren’t the same anymore. Moving on is simple, but what you leave behind that makes it difficult. I have no idea if they’re real or do they care. What should I do, what can I do? A joyful moment is made painful. A million of tears rolling down and I tot we’re friends. Closer like as if we’re family. But a friends that doesn’t care, that leave you behind, that hurts one another, that isn't there to lean on… is no longer called as “friends”. When I look around and see the faces of friends, I can only think I really am alone… because they are truly no friends at all.

Friendship grows the way relationship grew. A friend could heal or kill our hearts. The only reason why they can do that, it's because you care, cherish and they’re almost part of your life too. That’s why when friends leave us behind; we would be so mad and upset.

Sometimes even though we having a good time, I can't help myself not to stop and think about the good old days. Looking at these pictures is just like replaying a movie in my mind. It takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it. I know it doesn't make sense to let go of something I wanted for so long, but it also doesn't make sense to hold on when there’s nothing there anymore. We can't always have what we want, we don't always know what we need, and we never really see what we have. Friendship means understanding, not agreement. It means forgiveness, not forgetting. It means the memories last, even if contact is lost.

I guess the reason why I always end up hurting this way is because I cherish this friendship. I would rather cry over the truth than smile over a lie. Somehow, letting it go doesn't mean giving up. It just means accepting that some things just weren’t meant to be. Friends don’t come and go, I let them walk away. Sorry I forgot to tell you that as my friend you must be true. Perhaps, I should really just move on and build my trust on someone that what “friends” should be.

This situation is driving me crazy; my heart is damaged. I can’t help myself not to break down and cry. I had enough wetting my pillow every night with all these thinking. Breathe in and out* I’m all done.