The best way to pay for a lovely moment; is to enjoy it.

Well hellooo! Yess is just me and my dad picture to entertain you people abit. REALLY looks a like rightttt !? ahaha I know, out of nowhere, I feel like blogging again, and then I’m sure definitely I will disappear myself again. ahaha. I was actually reading back my entire old posts; gossh.. I miss blogging man. I miss like everytime at least maybe in a week I used to blog more than 10times. Okayy… maybe less than that? Idk laa.

Reading back from years of 2008-2011, I realized there are hell lots of ups and downs that make me shed tears, heartbreaking and even laughter. How I wish I can just rewind back the pasts and pause just right where I wanted it to be. Every sec counts.

It’s funny that how you used to be so damn freaking close with this person and now is like a totally stranger to you. Just like as if you never meet one another before. As time just ticks tok-ing “pass” us by, things definitely changes freaking fast man. Idk if you don’t appreciate things you have now, then too bad laa, it’s your lost.

Okay... Skip this part. Let’s jump to my lil’ girl; winwin! I found some picture of her that I guess I lost it in my phone & comp.

Fml or what ? She is damn freaking cuteeeeeeee right !? I swear I can’t accept the facts that one day she won’t be by my side anymore. Idk how my life will be man. Ahh!

Ohh! And I found this picture too... Is not winwin actually… Is her sister, I guess. Lol! Alright, I shall continue watching my ghost movie before I off to bed. Goodnight peeps ;3

“take the fucking deep breath and forget about it”

Sorry no password :)

If only I wish I could.

A simple way just won’t go smooth.

Just when you want make things happy-go-smooth but end up it doesn't appear like how you wanted it to be. Isn't it sucks? That’s why people always say “don’t expect that much just follow the flow”. Why bother to put a lot effort on it, when another one just keeps pushing you down? Sometimes I really got this urge to tell what I feel inside but end up my mind keeps telling; forget about it. Just keep it to yourself. Big sighhh Sometimes I wish you will be here, so I could hug you and tell you how much I couldn't stand all these bullshit anymore.

Like the taste of your smile.

Heeeello.. Okay I think my blog really so pity for not updating at all. I’ve been MIA like... 4months? Actually I’m not.. Just lazy to update* At least now I'm back. heee. I think life pretty much different to me now. Since started my college life and trying getting used to it. Somehow college life is fun yet are killing you max :p Since I got nothing to update then I shall update you about my baby. Remember who’s my baby girl ?

Isn’t she dang cute ? So fast and she’d 3years old but still she’s just a baby girl to me. You know I can’t really stand her at all for using her old trick that so-called-pity-face to get everyone attention. Cause she always got that click to melts my heart. Wtfff. sillyass. Trust me, she acting dang innocent nowadays. Better don’t look at her eyes otherwise you will get her “electric” :p Ahahaha.. kayy since is already comin 4am. Need to off now. Sillybaby dang sleepy too.

Goodnight ;3

But tonight I’m loving you.

Always be my love one ♥

Recently, I think I’ve been real sot. Hahahahahaahahhahahaahahahhaahaah. See, If you get what I mean :P Staying at home, all I can do was waiting the time to pass me by as fast as it could. Such lifeless, eh ? hahahaha, nevermind. At least, maybe I can day dream more or learn how to be real sampat. HAHAA okay, I’m talking nonsense. & I think mummy also can’t stand me anymore. She keeps saying I act like a 10years old girl. Ohhh, please. If I don’t act like tht, how can I make you laugh like mad ? :))

I know, past few days, I wasn’t that happy cause something happened. Something real bad and hell FAKE wei ! But, I know I couldn’t stop anything, so oh well, just let it be la. At least these prove to us that we’ve been so blind all the time ~ ;) Think more positive; let it go, let it be. We still have each other right, chuchu[s] ? hahaahahahahhaa :))

As I mention before that I will update about CNY, but actually... I’m quite lazy now; perhaps next time again ? hehh. You know there’s toilet bowl restaurant at Pyramid right ? I always wanted to try the so-called-shit-ice cream thingy. And during the CNY day, chuchu[s] and aunt planned to eat at there. And finally, I get to try it.

Although looks like shit, but taste yummyyyy ! just normal ice-cream. Haahahaha

Mad happy that finally tmr I got driving lesson. Which made me wait for 134587543224567654 years :p Okay, I’m crapping la. But still can’t wait for tmr :D

Just fyi, chuchu[s] are my sisters. Don't wanna those babi here and there d.

hahaahah ♥

Happy Valentine's day ! :))

A bell is no bell 'til you ring it,
A song is no song 'til you sing it,
And love in your heart
Wasn't put there to stay -
Love isn’t love
'Til you give it away

You’re smart enough to be stupid. Congratulation :D

Excuse me, passwords ? :))

Tears are everywhere.

Thank you for making this family from happiness to sadness. Thank you. Enough talking about you, I’m talking about myself; my feeling. Fml or not ? That from 11pm I tried so hard to sleep, but my mind just couldn’t stop thinking about this mess.

I really feel so heartbroken to watch at this big mess happens just like that, and I couldn’t bear to do anything but lock myself in the room and cry. I really wants to get an answer; why ? Really. Why ? I know I can’t fight back to get an answer, because I am just hurting myself & the people I loved. I don’t want to yell at him anymore, I don’t want. Instead of yelling at him, I choose to shut my mouth up and eat the entire blame. This is seriously not the first time I got blames in almost EVERYTHING. I’m also a human. I got my own feelings, kay. How many time can I advice myself by thinking more positive instead negative. Choose not to care, everything will be alright. Just don’t care. But why the hell these tears keep rolling down ? Is hurt. Really hurt.

Why all these years I have to think about his feeling but he couldn’t think about mine ? Yet still says is my entire fault. Which part is my fault !? No matter how many time, I says “IS NOT ME, GO FIND OUT THE TRUTH”, he always stand over there. Then what’s the point of asking when you already won’t choose to stand here ! Sometimes, life is just so unfair. I wish there’s a button to stop what’s playing while you don’t want it to play at all.

Everyone got their own emotion. You care about em only, but what about me !? My emotion are dead 1 la, isit ?

I don’t understand. I choose to keep quiet, while you questioning & when everyone know who’s the wrong 1 is only BECAUSE I don’t want war. But this doesn’t mean that I’m the wrong 1. IF I am, I will admit. Thousands of times I said, is not me is not me. All you did was yelling at me and says, is ME ME ME ME ! I know there’s ME in the BLAME word, but this doesn’t mean you can always blame me when I’m not at the wrong point. You just don’t understand me and my feelings.

What can I do when none understand this feeling other than me. Somehow, people think I got no problem, just a happy-go-lucky-girl. You’re so damn wrong. I’m not. I’m using happiness to hide my sadness while I’m actually lying to myself. Hell yeaahh, I can be an actress to pretend everything is okay. I’m such a big fat liar to myself.

My eyes really swollen and its hurt, but however, no matter how many tissue I use, this just still prove me, I am always wrong. Good, very good. I’m all done. MY EMOTION ARE ACTUALLY DEAD ! :))

Goodnight.

Ashamed.

Need passwords.

I know I shouldn’t type it here..

BUT I really can’t stand it anymore. Really, what’s the point of fighting and arguing with all these stuff !? This is not battle. We never speaks out is only because we really respect you people. To make this clear enough, we’re not trying to argue but we’re trying to talk about the facts. Instead of talking about the facts, its seems like we’re the one that been blame ? Excuse me, PLEASE thinks about OUR feeling too. As whatever we can help, we will. But even if we can’t, how hard it is, we still willing to try our best to help. However, I don’t think that this is the right way to help. I means, think again, now is your family problems. Why turns this to my family problems too ? Why can’t you calm down yourself and talk about it ? Instead of yelling here and there, just talk.

Alright, thinks twice, who’s the one that sell away the old house and use that money for you people to go studies instead of using for himself / his family ? Or even just one simple call in the middle of the night, he still straight away go help even he know he got work on the next morning. Another call, this spoil that spoil, no matter what, he always appear infront. What he can do, he try his best. Daddy really is a soft hearted person no matter whatever it’s he always put others 1^st instead of himself. He always thinks; help people is good. YES, I know helping one another is good but who the hell is going to help him !? No, I’m not saying this because of I’m his daughter, okay. We’re still in the same blood; as in 1 big family. But you should know, how long can he help you guys ? He still got his own family. What about my 2^nd sister ? What about me ? or even my younger sister ? Our future ? Okay, maybe you think that my elder sister can help what. But how long can she help ? She already got her own family. One day, she will even have her own child. She can’t help us any longer too. There is no any F.O.C. for us in this world. Must remember, there's no free lunch. I could not imagine throwing his hard-earned money like this.

Honestly, I really didn’t waste my 3hours inside the room to advices her. At least I, as her cousin, I truly understand what’s her feeling inside. You know, leaving her and her problems alone doesn’t help anything but ONLY will make this even worst. IF there’s a big door, 1 person with 2hands can’t push the door open. There must be more than 2hands to open that door. What I’m trying to say is she really needs you people to supports her. Push her up instead of keeps looking down on her. And do you know how hurtful it is for you people keeps saying that she’s not a normal person !? She is a normal person. Why when everyone scolds her / anything about her she prefers shut her mouth up instead of choose to fight back. Think again, what happen that can made her become like this ? If you think no one understand her better than you do. Well, you’re so damn wrong. Really wrong. Did she speaks out her whatever problem or deeply inside of her to you ? Tell me, did you and her sit together and speaks nicely or anything. Did you ?

What happen IF all these stuff happens to you ? As in, she thinks you’re not normal. She doesn’t even give a damn to help you with your problems. Ask you go hell or she used you as her main joke topic and everything. How would you feel about this ? Yes, I know, you’re mad at me for saying you like this. If this mad that can makes you realize how she felt inside, I think this is worth it.

Okay, let’s just say, you already have your own family. Your husband / daughter / son have this same problem, will you let them walk alone or you will choose to walk with them together ? Which will you be ? Greedy / Helpful ? She only got you as her sister; ONE AND ONLY sister. If jealousy turns into hates, then where the hell is loves !? Inside the rubbish bin ? I’m not trying to add salt and vinegar. But this is the facts. Come on, think back the pasts, how far your relationship between you and your family. I can’t judges about this, you think. Is there something you got to change ?

As I wrote all these out, I know I must get ready to get scolding / blame. At least, I know, not only I felt this way too.

Goodnight.

Chor 3.

HELLO ! My picture didn’t scare you, right ? HAHAHA Okayy, I’ve no idea what to put for this post title. This explains why it’s chor 3. Anyway, CNY is finally here ! Meanwhile, is so gonna a busy week for me too. Damn sad cause Chor 2 I’m already sick. Fever, Flu, and sort throat. Today I damn free cause forced to stay at home, since my fever still haven’t cure. Dumb ass fever. hahaha. I knowwww.. I got so much more to update about CNY eve & Chor 1. But maybe some other day 1^st :p Okayy, I’ve been craving Shimino for damnnnnn freaking long. Finally can taste it.

Is only my 2^nd time eating this Shimino, but I abit don’t like it already. LOL. So, gonna Lou sang tonight :)) I better stop here. Happy Happy CNY everyone ! :D

天天好天. Great day.

This movie is awesome ! Mad awesome ! Although I don’t really like the ending part but all over is damn freaking nice ! Thumb up* I couldn’t resist but to tears out. Ahahaa, is so freaking touching from the beginning till the end. If you didn’t tears while watching, you’re a heartless person :p HAHAHAA !

Over view of this movie;

"Great Day" tells the story of two uncles who live in an old folks home. Aggravated by an argument and with the help of Ah Hock and Ultraman, the two men decide to escape from the home and find their children, just to show off whose children are better. The fun catches on with odd circumstances one after another, but in the end of the day it's going to be a big reunion at the old folk's home.

There’s a part I feel like is damn true. “Parents can only take care another half of us, while other half of us, we can only see them getting old and take good care of them back.” If I’m not mistaken, is just something like that.

Goshhh, you know, I don’t mind to watch all over again ;) ahahhaha. Alright, I don’t want to be a spoiler to tell out almost the whole story here. Go ahead, you won’t regret to watch this movie :D

You'll always have a part in our heart.

Never been so down ever since my grandma passed away. Received a call by aunt said that Gu Gong passed away… yesterday. I’m so heartbroken because they told us today instead of yesterday. By the time I’m gonna reach there will be late. Cause they gonna burn his body like… another 1/2hrs more & I’m still at Malaysia ! Also means I couldn’t see his face for 1 last chance. Really. Heartbroken. My mind is totally empty.

Is been 7years since I’ve last seen him. I barely remember how he looks like, but thinking back on the past, he used to be the joyful one. Just when everyone is about to breakdown, he would come up with some jokes to crave a smile in each of our face... Whether or not he is sad inside, I honestly have no idea. Because each time I saw him, he always has his signature smile.

Off to SG soon. Sighh* I’m so…. heartache.

May you R.I.P Gu Gong.

Don't let life pass you by just in the blink of an eye.

Yelloo ! Okayy recently I feel so lifeless staying at home doing nothing. Not like I wanted it to be like that also. Meanwhile, I’m still waiting for my L license to come. But I guess after CNY only I can get my L. Okayy, I’m sooo slow ! ;(

I don’t know which Wednesday, watched Paranormal Activity 2 together with my babes. Mygoodness, I know I’m being so stubborn for not listening to my sisters’ advice. Because they said that this movie is suck. But this is the ONLY so-called-ghost movie in cinema what, what can I do ? ahaha. Okayy gotta admit. This movie really sucks like mad. REALLY. Make me feel damn dizzy while watching. Don’t you ever watch Paranormal Activity 1 / 2 or either coming part 3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10. Okay I sound like insulting this movie but is true what :)

Then last Sunday is my younger sis’s birthday. What I really love on that day is get to hang out with family. Ahhh damn priceless moment. heh. Went all around from Klang to KL. Didn’t really get to shops that much cause damn lots of mummies walking around which makes me feel so sleepy also :p So decided to go for dinner at Chong Kok Wah Tuo Guan Restaurant. Having funs when family start to jokes around. I guess inside the restaurant only we make so much noise. paisehh ah. Ahaha. Really sampat. So, while heading back home, supposed to give a lil’ surprise for younger sis. But too bad, she herself spoils our plan. AHAH ! So forced to bring her along to buy her favorite cake; American Chocolate cake. Well, I hate chocolate cake :)

After done with the cake, planned to go for middle night movie. Faster.

Don’t get me wrong. The movie named, Faster. Ahaha.. Okayy laa, FOR ME, this movie quite not bad but only for me, maybe for you guys will... I don’t know... go watch yourself. I don’t want to be a spoiler again as I already complain about the paranormal movie :p

And now, I’m looking forward to watch this movie…

Hmmm… Trailer looks like it’s so scary & nice. So I hope it don’t let me down laa :D

Hello my Precious sweetheart…

NOT ! Ahahaah!

You’ve been my annoying sister for 15years. I’ve been yours for 15years. Okayy laa, this is so nonsense. Ahaha. You know what ? I really damn tired but you force me to update my dead blog. Kayy, is a good thing also since nowadays my blog damn dead d :b

Let’s see… quite fast you already 15year old. I’m not tht old, right ? Only like… Older than you 3years. Wait. Or isit 2years ? OMG, okay I admit I quite old d LOL. I don’t know where to start a topic of you. That will be 98654253674859060 long for me to type. Let’s start when you’re still young >)

I can still remember you used to call tomato sos become motolo ? sotong become tongso ? ahaha ! Mad cute. Even when we bring you go cut your hair, you still cry and say no. Because cut hair is PAIN !? HAHAHAHA.

Okayy, I better stop make you feel embarrassing if not I sure got no peace at home. Cause someone will yell at me till non-stop. My bed is a safer place for me to hide. Wtf. Ahha.

But I still can’t believe you’re 15year old. Damn freaking… heh ! To me, you’re still a small baby that we used to play princess and etc at parents room. Haha.

See how much we’ve grown up. sniff* ahaha. Okayy, since a birthday only happens once in each year,

I’m wishing you another year
Of laughter, joy and fun,
Surprises, love and happiness,
And when your birthday’s done,

I hope you feel deep in your heart,
As your birthdays come and go,
How very much you mean to me,
More than you can know.

Happy happy birthday to you, ying ! ♥

Wait, before I end this post... PLEASE cut your hair. I very piss off with your hair d. Damn freaking thick ! Cut hair is never pain, kay ? HAHAHA ! And stop yelling at me, I'll do the same to you. But I pity your ear only. So do pity mine too ;)

I’ll give you all my time & I promise to be a good girl to you…

But only for tomorrow ! hahaahha. I still love you ♥ ;)