BUT I really can’t stand it anymore. Really, what’s the point of fighting and arguing with all these stuff !? This is not battle. We never speaks out is only because we really respect you people. To make this clear enough, we’re not trying to argue but we’re trying to talk about the facts. Instead of talking about the facts, its seems like we’re the one that been blame ? Excuse me, PLEASE thinks about OUR feeling too. As whatever we can help, we will. But even if we can’t, how hard it is, we still willing to try our best to help. However, I don’t think that this is the right way to help. I means, think again, now is your family problems. Why turns this to my family problems too ? Why can’t you calm down yourself and talk about it ? Instead of yelling here and there, just talk.
Alright, thinks twice, who’s the one that sell away the old house and use that money for you people to go studies instead of using for himself / his family ? Or even just one simple call in the middle of the night, he still straight away go help even he know he got work on the next morning. Another call, this spoil that spoil, no matter what, he always appear infront. What he can do, he try his best. Daddy really is a soft hearted person no matter whatever it’s he always put others 1st instead of himself. He always thinks; help people is good. YES, I know helping one another is good but who the hell is going to help him !? No, I’m not saying this because of I’m his daughter, okay. We’re still in the same blood; as in 1 big family. But you should know, how long can he help you guys ? He still got his own family. What about my 2nd sister ? What about me ? or even my younger sister ? Our future ? Okay, maybe you think that my elder sister can help what. But how long can she help ? She already got her own family. One day, she will even have her own child. She can’t help us any longer too. There is no any F.O.C. for us in this world. Must remember, there's no free lunch. I could not imagine throwing his hard-earned money like this.
Honestly, I really didn’t waste my 3hours inside the room to advices her. At least I, as her cousin, I truly understand what’s her feeling inside. You know, leaving her and her problems alone doesn’t help anything but ONLY will make this even worst. IF there’s a big door, 1 person with 2hands can’t push the door open. There must be more than 2hands to open that door. What I’m trying to say is she really needs you people to supports her. Push her up instead of keeps looking down on her. And do you know how hurtful it is for you people keeps saying that she’s not a normal person !? She is a normal person. Why when everyone scolds her / anything about her she prefers shut her mouth up instead of choose to fight back. Think again, what happen that can made her become like this ? If you think no one understand her better than you do. Well, you’re so damn wrong. Really wrong. Did she speaks out her whatever problem or deeply inside of her to you ? Tell me, did you and her sit together and speaks nicely or anything. Did you ?
What happen IF all these stuff happens to you ? As in, she thinks you’re not normal. She doesn’t even give a damn to help you with your problems. Ask you go hell or she used you as her main joke topic and everything. How would you feel about this ? Yes, I know, you’re mad at me for saying you like this. If this mad that can makes you realize how she felt inside, I think this is worth it.
Okay, let’s just say, you already have your own family. Your husband / daughter / son have this same problem, will you let them walk alone or you will choose to walk with them together ? Which will you be ? Greedy / Helpful ? She only got you as her sister; ONE AND ONLY sister. If jealousy turns into hates, then where the hell is loves !? Inside the rubbish bin ? I’m not trying to add salt and vinegar. But this is the facts. Come on, think back the pasts, how far your relationship between you and your family. I can’t judges about this, you think. Is there something you got to change ?
As I wrote all these out, I know I must get ready to get scolding / blame. At least, I know, not only I felt this way too.
Goodnight.
