Sunday, May 31, 2009

Take 1 step back...


I told Xing and AiLin that I’m reading SM’s older posts...and they were like

ehh ehh I also wanna read our old posts laaa

LOL read back all babe older posts, quite funny laaa..I don’t know why I laughhh till I sot edi but on the same time, I feel very sad + wanna cry...omg what’s wrong with me? Lol I don’t know laaa...but izzit me or the time really passed by so fast? Is like we really grow up so fast you know...all those posts are just so funny, angry, touching and so on...

Let’s take 1 step back and see what it is...

**~aiLiN~**+.+* say that you love me~ says:

y so many ppl din update about prom wan

tenG says:

LOL i tot AL say why so many ppl dint update porn?

Xıпg says:

HAHAA

*Xıпg says:

porn LOL

*Xıпg says:

mt u go update porn la

**~aiLiN~**+.+* say that you love me~ says:

ur post now all about bitch

*Xıпg says:

u and ur dog "play" that is porn

*Xıпg says:

xP

**~aiLiN~**+.+* say that you love me~ says:

i mean u, munteng

**~aiLiN~**+.+* say that you love me~ says:

hahax

**~aiLiN~**+.+* say that you love me~ says:

hahax porn

**~aiLiN~**+.+* say that you love me~ says:

munteng post all about BITCH

*Xıпg says:

hiieex mT ! ^^

tenG says:

haha

tenG says:

lala mui oh lala mui!

*Xıпg says:

siiham muiix!

tenG says:

i hate you!

tenG says:

*Xıпg says:

fiine larhx hate miies now larhx TT

tenG says:

i w@n tu b lala hor

tenG says:

*Xıпg says:

kay lorhx joiin miie ^^

tenG says:

ALAH! x jadi lalaa!!!!

*Xıпg says:

lala very mafan

*Xıпg says:

haha

*Xıпg says:

type until so much

*Xıпg says:

hand also tired xD

tenG says:

aahjahahha!!!

tenG says:

but fun!

*Xıпg says:

ahaha siham!

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xinG READ THIS!

ni hen lala hor! lala mui la ni!!!

hahahahaha!

你是拉拉的姑娘!

This conversation mmg very long time ago...And got alot more...Just that I lazy wanna copy and paste it (:

However, there’s something I really wanna talk about...

I really never use to appreciate what I have till I was Form 2. I’m serious. My attitude and so on was terrible! Let me start my story in the year of 2006 / 2007...

After a big fight and argue with my babes. I was always being alone...go school, recess and so on also by myself only. Even sometime I don’t like to go school. I always cari alasan and said I stomach pain so that I won’t be going to school. Ohhh and I DID! How silly am I? I seriously never use to think what I did was right or wrong. I always think that I’m doing anything will be right but perhaps I’m wrong? I still remember that loneliness was how painful. Everytime recess I sit at the staircase cry and think back am I doing too much? I even don’t like my life that time + I was thinking how good if I die edi? At least I won’t so sad like how I use to. I never got a better life. Everyone is like cat and dog to me. What I mean is like nobody use to like me for being their friends. I don’t even know why till I found out. Until I was Form 3, seem like my life has been changed.

Just something like this...

Parvin? I use to fight with parvin like cat and dog. I don’t know why but just that from tadika till form 2 we always use to fight. 16 years I know her and I’m so glad that 2years we deal with each other not to fight. So now here we are not just normal friend but very close best friend.

Esther? She was being there for me when I was Form1, sharing her prob and so on with me but all I did was dumb her, talk bad about her and so on. She did the same too. But after sometime we take a step forward and try give each other chance by saying sorry and so on. And here, we’re close to each other = bestfriend too. lol

Yee Wern? We just did not like each other. And alot bad stuff happens. But now everything change. I don’t know how it’s happen but we really change and become bestfriend too.

Laura & SooLi? Well, nothing happen between us. Just that we become bestfriends :D

AiLin, Xhee Kee, Siew Man, Vanessa, Xing, Jenn Li? They just don’t like me for some problems laaa...I kind of forget what happen but I can say everything has changed. Not changed to be bad BUT good! (:

Somehow it's turn out to become...

MSAJXXVP [VANITY IS PASSION], YeeWern, Esther, laura and Sooli.





And just because of them, I changed myself to be better person. And I really miss everything we ever went through. KDU trip, Sunway Pyramid & Lagoon, PMR, Recess together watching movie and so on. I’m afraid that I won’t be able to remember so many things. I even blame the time why must tic tok tic tok so fast?! 15years just passed by me like that. When I was 10years old, I use to think how good if I already 11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18 till I can drive, work, get married and I got my very own 1st child? But now I feel like wanna stop the time at this age! I don’t want to grow up! I want to stop here! I really want to stay with my parent, sisters and friends! I just can’t accept the fact of losing any of them! I just can’t! Really.

I just can’t remember so many things, I even afraid just oneday I will lost all my memory like old people do sometime. :’(

Is true like what Xing said “The time spent with friends is what money can’t buy”. I miss 2008! I really miss that year. But we already grow up. & I feel like we’re not that close like how we use to. Yes, we still stick together as 1 group but do our heart still together as 1?

I’m not sure, but now is the right time for you guys to tell me do our friendships still stayed as 1 group or 1 heart? I let you to be the judge. Tell me how close are we now?

Somehow, you guys change my life, my attitude (: & show me what true friends are!! :D I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

Things will change...but Friends always stayed till the end of our life. Thanks for all the memories & everything!

For the 1st time I think this is the long post I ever write.

But still I just miss the old time with you guys so badly!!! :(

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